I wish I was sane

I haven't been feeling great lately. I passed out like twice yesterday and once today. They took me to the ER and I had to wait forever just to get back there. They had to put an I.V. in because I they couldn't draw blood any other way. They did all kinds of tests but they haven't found anything. So now I am going to see a different doctor tom. I am super nervous. I hope I'm not sick. But, I would like to not pass out anymore.

I haven't written much. I don't go on the internet anymore really. I just drive around and work mostly now. School starts soon. I hate school.

Drunk driving really hits home when you know the one driving.

i'm back, it was fun but three people drown while we were there and three people were attacked by sharks in florida. It wouldn't be a problem if i wasn't super duper afraid of sharks. VERY AFRAID! But i am happy to be home.

I PASSED THE TEST! I CAN DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am at Tess' right now. it will be fun. I get to stay till Monday and her mom is taking me to work. I got more hours in and I will be making good money so thats good. I am really, really seriously considering not doing band. I don't really want to anymore. I am too tired to fight it anymore.

Last night I was really mad because my lil yorkie got out and we had to chase her down. Then she did it a second time. It burned my toast. I talked to Tess and Eric and Drewester. Plus Mark E Mark. Today I watched Shark Tale and tomorrow I go see the Sisterhood all with my mommy. After the little counseler visit we are spending more time together. Eric is coming over tonight so I hope its a good night.

Memorial day was really fun. Well, mostly it was fun. I decided to go to the park with Eric and Theresa. I was really excited and all but my dad got so pissed. I had finals today and he wanted me to stay home and study but I didn't. So he went on and on about it I don't get an A on the finals he will punish me so badly I will cry and how I put so much pressure on his fucking life. Whatever. So by the time I got to the park I was so pissed because Tess y Eric were a tad late so that pissd my dad off more. Again, whatever. We hung around and didn't much of anything. Except Eric sat on me while Tess poked me with grass. I felt violated that whole day. I had to be the mom to and tel everyone when to leave and what to do. It was so damn very though because if I told Eric to jump,he would. Me and Tess giggled alot. Um, what else? I really hope my mom doesn't develop those pictures because that would be very bad.
Hey, we never did get to the airplanes, did we? I kept asking to go but nobody ever would. I just realized that. We did smoke to much too.
The day got better and I went home and studied. Well, I was sitting on my bed and my dad was looking for a band-aid. Then was like great we don't have any and I said why and he said because you used them for all your cuts. Oh no he didn't. Oh yes he did. He went there. He went there and back on a train. I cried a little after he said that because it hurt my feelings.